hey! i do know what you mean, i went thru that already. good thing about getting to be an old man like me. if you survive there are rewards.
love them, share good times with them. then send them home to the parents.
i know about the cost of pets, i have 2 sitting in my lap and one laying on my feet right now.
good luck.......when you get ready , we can walk you thru it, if you want or need some help.